40 Oz. To Freedom

Current mood: Uneasy
Listening to: Santeria by Sublime

Arg, I'm having the hardest time gathering my thoughts, but I truly believe that it would help me to put these feelings down in writing. I'm so annoyed. Not even sure that's the word.

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Okay, I thought it over now. I really shouldn't get that emotionally upset by this. I really should be annoyed by myself, for letting it get that far. Why am I not thinking clearly, when it comes to this? Okay, that was certainly a redundant question. But seriously, I'm so much better off this way. I HAVE to keep that in mind when these thoughts pop up. Thank you, Sublime. Listening to you guys puts things like this in perspective. I should praise myself lucky, that it's over! It really wasn't a healthy situation. The cons were definitely not worth enduring for the sake of the pros. Haha, certainly all of that was brought on by Adium! Rearranging the groups and contact, going through the message histories undoubtedly made all the old feelings shine through. Not that I'm repressing them, 'cause I've processed the whole experience, but even though it's still possible to get caught in the past sometimes, when you forget the important stuff. Helle, my sister, really is right - it's all one big process. Even though you move on, there will always be a little bit left. But as always, I have a hard time accepting this, haha! Evidently, I'll just have to and perhaps that alone will become a whole new process. Haha, oh dear.

I miss Mikey <3