Current mood: Panicking
Listening to: On The Verge by Le Tigre
|əˌræknəˈfoʊbiə|
noun
extreme or irrational fear of spiders.
extreme and irrational being the key words here folks.
I write this now, because I just nearly tossed my table with my computer and drink over, when suddenly panicking and thus felt the need to jump 10 feet into the air.
All of this because a spider found it's way to my couch and was prancing towards my knee in direction of my mac.
I loathe spiders. Just in case the previous scenario didn't quite get this across. I dread them. And this fucker was about 1,5 inch in diameter. Not big you say? Well, big enough to make me lose it. Even as I write this I am erratically twitching my head over my shoulder, jumpy, like a snitch about to be located. Only because I fear that one of these damn creatures will come to avenge the death of (what I fear to be) a beloved kindred.
Now that was clearly the irrational part of my fear. Now would be a good time to explain the traumatic event in my childhood that is the cause of this ludicrous phobia. Only there is none.
I have absolutely no idea why the hell I'm so scared of these damn bugs. I do know that my sister had this illogical fear also, so maybe she passed it on to me? Only she has gotten rid of most of hers - (damn her!) - so I feel a bit alone here. Also, I'm supposed to be this butchy and androgynous tomboy, so this really doesn't do much for my image. But to hell with it! I admit it, I'm deadly afraid of spiders!
So what I'm looking for is a femme who can be butch enough to protect me from these freaks of nature. Ideally, this wonder woman would not mind interrupting her activities in order to go out into the bathroom and remove a spider, so that my livelihood (red. bladder) could once again be secured.
Preferably this divinity would report to my apartment immediately, since my usual carefree state of mind has been broken down.
First thing in the morning, I am so vacuuming this whole place. Why do people have to sleep at 2 am anyway? pfft.
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Saturday, July 26, 2008
Silly little plant
Current mood: Tired
Listening to: Hellogoodbye
It's been hardly a moment and you are already missed. Say please do not go, but you know that I must. But you know you can trust. We'll be holding hands, all our broken plans I will mend. I will hold you tight so you know.
It's been hardly three days and I'm longing to feel your embrace. There are several days until I can see your sweet face. Wouldn't it be nice to know right now that we'll be someday holding hands?All our broken plans will have been.
When I'm gone these words will be here to ease every fear and make it very clear.
Thinking oh, is it love?
Listening to: Hellogoodbye
It's been hardly a moment and you are already missed. Say please do not go, but you know that I must. But you know you can trust. We'll be holding hands, all our broken plans I will mend. I will hold you tight so you know.
It's been hardly three days and I'm longing to feel your embrace. There are several days until I can see your sweet face. Wouldn't it be nice to know right now that we'll be someday holding hands?All our broken plans will have been.
When I'm gone these words will be here to ease every fear and make it very clear.
Thinking oh, is it love?
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Lesbian FTP
Current mood: Thoughtful
Listening to: My My Metrocard by Le Tigre
We seriously need to import some new lesbians here. It's like I said to my sister the other day: "I'm gonna be single until new lesbians hatch or some are imported. Not out of righteous choice really, but this is getting ridiculous!"
"No wonder there's so much drama!" I thought to myself after complaining for three days. "If we stopped dating our friends ex-girlfriends, the drama would be fairly less overwhelming."
Now I make it sound like everyone is recycling. And that's honestly not the case. It's mostly me. I think people are starting to reconsider, if they really want to introduce me to their new girlfriends. I'm really beginning to get a bad reputation when it comes to "snatching" friends girlfriends/ex-girlfriends.
Oh, I kid! I'm really not that bad. I'm no Shane - more like Alice really. Just not able to control my heart. Is there a condition where your brain switches off and your heart picks up the trail? Because then I sure have it. Although that's a bad excuse. Just sounds a lot more romantic, right? In reality, I would just much rather regret what I've done, than regret something I didn't do.
But now my first ex-girlfriend is involved with my third ex-girlfriend. And the first one is the only one I've been able to stay friends with, while I can't stand the third one. Also, clearly first ex deserves way better than third ex. Pfft. But who am I to judge? I just got out of a relationship with my former best friend's second ex girlfriend.
Confused yet?
I demand that new lesbians hatch or that we at least get some fine imported ones soon! Giddy-up, I say!
Listening to: My My Metrocard by Le Tigre
We seriously need to import some new lesbians here. It's like I said to my sister the other day: "I'm gonna be single until new lesbians hatch or some are imported. Not out of righteous choice really, but this is getting ridiculous!"
"No wonder there's so much drama!" I thought to myself after complaining for three days. "If we stopped dating our friends ex-girlfriends, the drama would be fairly less overwhelming."
Now I make it sound like everyone is recycling. And that's honestly not the case. It's mostly me. I think people are starting to reconsider, if they really want to introduce me to their new girlfriends. I'm really beginning to get a bad reputation when it comes to "snatching" friends girlfriends/ex-girlfriends.
Oh, I kid! I'm really not that bad. I'm no Shane - more like Alice really. Just not able to control my heart. Is there a condition where your brain switches off and your heart picks up the trail? Because then I sure have it. Although that's a bad excuse. Just sounds a lot more romantic, right? In reality, I would just much rather regret what I've done, than regret something I didn't do.
But now my first ex-girlfriend is involved with my third ex-girlfriend. And the first one is the only one I've been able to stay friends with, while I can't stand the third one. Also, clearly first ex deserves way better than third ex. Pfft. But who am I to judge? I just got out of a relationship with my former best friend's second ex girlfriend.
Confused yet?
I demand that new lesbians hatch or that we at least get some fine imported ones soon! Giddy-up, I say!
Monday, July 21, 2008
Uncomplicated
Current mood: Melting
Listening to: Look Out, Here They Come! : The L Word
Ah, I love watching The L Word again. It makes me feel like my own life isn't that complicated. Or at least I like seeing that I'm not the only who fucks up my life. Although I can't stop crying out: "No, Shane! Why! Haven't you learned anything!?", it makes me feel a lot better, knowing that I'm not the only one who fucks up and doesn't always learn from my mistakes. Relating to that, I would just like my life to slow down. NOW. I'm tired of all the drama and I need a break. I'd love for a boring slow period to come along right now, so my life could fall into a dull routine. That would be greeted with deep gratitude right about now.
Oh, and also I might post something later about the night I had yesterday. Preview: Absinthe + tequila x drunk girl = sudden shocking kiss attack. On me.
But for now, it's on to The L Word <3
Listening to: Look Out, Here They Come! : The L Word
Ah, I love watching The L Word again. It makes me feel like my own life isn't that complicated. Or at least I like seeing that I'm not the only who fucks up my life. Although I can't stop crying out: "No, Shane! Why! Haven't you learned anything!?", it makes me feel a lot better, knowing that I'm not the only one who fucks up and doesn't always learn from my mistakes. Relating to that, I would just like my life to slow down. NOW. I'm tired of all the drama and I need a break. I'd love for a boring slow period to come along right now, so my life could fall into a dull routine. That would be greeted with deep gratitude right about now.
Oh, and also I might post something later about the night I had yesterday. Preview: Absinthe + tequila x drunk girl = sudden shocking kiss attack. On me.
But for now, it's on to The L Word <3
Sunday, July 20, 2008
Your hand in mine
Current mood: Infatuated
Listening to: We Start To Drift by Shipping News
There's a lot that I want to say, but my thoughts keep spinning around one person.
Listening to: We Start To Drift by Shipping News
There's a lot that I want to say, but my thoughts keep spinning around one person.
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Apartment Story
Current mood: Lost in thought
Listening to: Mistaken For Strangers by The National
I was up all night again, boning up and reading the American dictionary. I know you put in the hours to keep me in sunglasses, I know.
Listening to: Mistaken For Strangers by The National
I was up all night again, boning up and reading the American dictionary. I know you put in the hours to keep me in sunglasses, I know.
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Paradox
Current mood: Time zone confused
Listening to: Plastic Stars by Freezepop
So my sister proceeded her tricks yesterday and set up a most devious trap for me. Tsk! But oh well, we got a very good laugh out of it. I'm just so silly these days. Perhaps because I get way too little sleep or maybe because I'm acting like a little 13 year old. But really, I would have no trouble in visiting this amazing american girl I know, since I'm already on her time zone. Which is turning out to be quite the juggle project, since I'm also obligated to follow my own. I'm crazy being awake at 5 am in Denmark on a Wednesday, but perfectly fine by not sleeping at 10 pm in Texas on a Thuesday. Hence the 13 year old behavior, I'd say.
Oh, the entanglement!
I'd really love being in Waco, Texas right now. I'd just crash on the nearest bed and would wake up at the perfect time today. Haha, get it? 'Cause it's already .. here in .. Denmark? Oh, nevermind.
Anyway, my old apartment is being reviewed today, so I better get some sleep before that. And oh! I'm having breakfast with my dad in 6 hours ^^ so once again I'm gonna show up at the Coffee Bar (red. Kaffebaren) looking like a freakin' zombie. I seriously doubt that any of the staff thinks I'm human anymore.
Oooh, and I got to go to that fab gym today. No hot chicks though. But we knew the lady behind the counter! She's my brother's friend's girlfriend. That was crazy running into her there. But she's real nice. Kept asking me to remember to breathe, relax my shoulders and do Kegel exercises while training. Hahaha, I'm not really sure I want to do that lady, since .. well, that's kinda private, but noo Kegel exercises for me. I'm quite sure I won't be wetting the floor anytime soon : as she so elegantly mentioned, some elderly women do, because of weak pelvis muscles (or something like that - whaddo I know? I was trying to concentrate on training!)
Mental note: boost up to friday by training at home.
Listening to: Plastic Stars by Freezepop
So my sister proceeded her tricks yesterday and set up a most devious trap for me. Tsk! But oh well, we got a very good laugh out of it. I'm just so silly these days. Perhaps because I get way too little sleep or maybe because I'm acting like a little 13 year old. But really, I would have no trouble in visiting this amazing american girl I know, since I'm already on her time zone. Which is turning out to be quite the juggle project, since I'm also obligated to follow my own. I'm crazy being awake at 5 am in Denmark on a Wednesday, but perfectly fine by not sleeping at 10 pm in Texas on a Thuesday. Hence the 13 year old behavior, I'd say.
Oh, the entanglement!
I'd really love being in Waco, Texas right now. I'd just crash on the nearest bed and would wake up at the perfect time today. Haha, get it? 'Cause it's already .. here in .. Denmark? Oh, nevermind.
Anyway, my old apartment is being reviewed today, so I better get some sleep before that. And oh! I'm having breakfast with my dad in 6 hours ^^ so once again I'm gonna show up at the Coffee Bar (red. Kaffebaren) looking like a freakin' zombie. I seriously doubt that any of the staff thinks I'm human anymore.
Oooh, and I got to go to that fab gym today. No hot chicks though. But we knew the lady behind the counter! She's my brother's friend's girlfriend. That was crazy running into her there. But she's real nice. Kept asking me to remember to breathe, relax my shoulders and do Kegel exercises while training. Hahaha, I'm not really sure I want to do that lady, since .. well, that's kinda private, but noo Kegel exercises for me. I'm quite sure I won't be wetting the floor anytime soon : as she so elegantly mentioned, some elderly women do, because of weak pelvis muscles (or something like that - whaddo I know? I was trying to concentrate on training!)
Mental note: boost up to friday by training at home.
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
She's Your Cocaine
Current mood: Yearning
Listening to: She's Your Cocaine by Tori Amos
I have become so addicted once again. Luckily I don't have school anymore and I'm off from work this week. So I'm actually free to do what I want. But it's frustrating >_< and by sister said the most bewildering thing to me today, or rather yesterday, since it's 6.30 in the morning. I don't know why she doesn't understand that it isn't that simple! Maybe 'cause it's really not and I'm just driving myself nuts. But I totally forgot how thought consuming this was. Not how time consuming it is though. Mostly because I never minded.
*KISSES AND HUGS BLOGGER FRANTICALLY*
OmniWeb just crashed out of freakin' nowhere and I was ready to start screaming. But precious blogger autosaved the draft ^^ hee! Thank you blogger <3
Anyway. I just wish I had more opportunities! I want to do more than this. Even with how lovely everything is now, I'm greedy. I want moore! >_> meh.
Oh, btw! I broke up with Caroline on the 7th. Had it not been for some very special people, I would've stayed cynical and bitter for a lot longer. Girls are so FUCKED UP sometimes!%$#€!&!!!
But I really oughta go to bed quickly now - I have to go to 4 different offices tomorrow as in order to stay alive with this crappy economy at the moment. damnit! >_< afterwards I'm gonna go work out with my sister ^^ at this gym called No Men <3 haha. I think it's so funny. And after that we're gonna go clean my old apartment, so it's ready for the new owner (:
you know, I think american girls have some sort of magic, or .. perhaps just this one girl that I know <3
Listening to: She's Your Cocaine by Tori Amos
I have become so addicted once again. Luckily I don't have school anymore and I'm off from work this week. So I'm actually free to do what I want. But it's frustrating >_< and by sister said the most bewildering thing to me today, or rather yesterday, since it's 6.30 in the morning. I don't know why she doesn't understand that it isn't that simple! Maybe 'cause it's really not and I'm just driving myself nuts. But I totally forgot how thought consuming this was. Not how time consuming it is though. Mostly because I never minded.
*KISSES AND HUGS BLOGGER FRANTICALLY*
OmniWeb just crashed out of freakin' nowhere and I was ready to start screaming. But precious blogger autosaved the draft ^^ hee! Thank you blogger <3
Anyway. I just wish I had more opportunities! I want to do more than this. Even with how lovely everything is now, I'm greedy. I want moore! >_> meh.
Oh, btw! I broke up with Caroline on the 7th. Had it not been for some very special people, I would've stayed cynical and bitter for a lot longer. Girls are so FUCKED UP sometimes!%$#€!&!!!
But I really oughta go to bed quickly now - I have to go to 4 different offices tomorrow as in order to stay alive with this crappy economy at the moment. damnit! >_< afterwards I'm gonna go work out with my sister ^^ at this gym called No Men <3 haha. I think it's so funny. And after that we're gonna go clean my old apartment, so it's ready for the new owner (:
you know, I think american girls have some sort of magic, or .. perhaps just this one girl that I know <3
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